Friday, December 12, 2008

My Story

In 1998, while I was in college, I received the news I had Reactive Hypoglycemia.

For 10 years I had the illness which affected my body more and more with each passing year. Running any more than 2 miles was not possible for me.

I prayed for healing. But it never came.

And so I accepted it. Fallen world, sister. Life went on.

May 2008 rolled around. I went to the Amazon River with an organization named Amazon Medical Missions. This was my second year to go, as a nurse, serving the lovely people who live in the jungle along that mighty River.

God spoke to my heart on the floor of my ship's cabin: "Why do you think Me so small?"

Three months later I landed in Tijuana, Mexico to again serve as a Nurse, this time with Teen Mania. Myself and another nurse served 800 missionaries that week who crossed the border to minister to the people there. To say God was present and moving that week feels like an understatment. In our clinic, we saw amazing acts of a moving and living God, including healings, deliverances, and divine appointments. The praise for God in that place by His people was so magnificent, He couldn't help but be welcome there, and in turn, show up and do His thing. To say it was magical, well... it was.

By the end of that week I became a little sick. "Not a little sick," Fran the other nurse reminds me. "Alot sick. You were one sick puppy." I was. I had some sort of violent gastrointestinal attack along with dehydration and heat exhaustion.

Fran and a man named Rob, both who possess an amazing faith and belief in the power of God, both mighty prayer warriors, came alongside me and prayed for healing. I remember Fran saying, "All is well within Beth. Her whole body is healed, all is well. All sickness must flee in Jesus's name, in Jesus's name. All is well within her." I remember then throwing up and tasting something so foul in my mouth, grateful to feel release.

The next week I landed in Alaska. This time for a fun vacation to visit my dear friend, Jana. After the Tijuana sickness finally dissipated in my body, I realized a day later that something within my body felt different.

I realized I felt whole- in a way I hadn't realized I'd been broken. Meaning my body felt so different, the best I could describe it was remarking "I feel whole." I hadn't realized, after feeling broken for 10 years, what feeling whole could feel like. It felt very different. It felt very good.

I was afraid to believe I had been healed of hypoglycemia while in Tijuana. After you live for something for 10 whole years, it's hard to believe it can be gone in an instant. I did fasting blood glucose checks, skipped meals, and confirmed I was in fact, healed. I knew it within my spirit, I just had to know it within my mind.

I no longer had hypoglycemia.

I prayed to God about it. I asked Him if He had, in fact, healed my body. He said, "many will see and hear and put their trust in the Lord."

I was free!

About that time I was approached about running a half-marathon. My answer to that challenge had always been no, hypoglycemia wouldn't allow my body to handle it. Now that excuse was gone.

And then God brought to mind my wonderful friends in the Amazon, Mike and Susie Dempsey. Mike and Susie, along with some others, have given their whole lives away to move to Peru and spend their days giving all they have to serve the jungle people and tell them about Jesus, the One who makes all things new. I'd been wanting to bless them for awhile.

So the idea was born within my spirit to run the Half Marathon to give God thanks for the amazing miracle that is my body. And to use the run to raise funds for Amazon Medical Missions. And to conquer fear. And to strengthen my inner man, as times are getting fierce.


So, come Sunday, with His help, I will run 13 miles into glory. Not for myself, but for the God who healed me. Jehovah Rophe. My friend, Jesus. I won't do it in my own strength, though the training has strengthened my body. I will do it with the living, breathing, pumping life force of Jesus that lives within me. The same power that drove Him all the way to a Roman cross for you and for me, to suffer all the punishment of all the sin of the entire world before He died and rose again. That power that conquered death and set every single one of us free who believe in Him and admit we are in desperate need of Him- that will carry me to the finish line. That healed my body.

He is alive, friends. Make no mistake, He sits on a throne but He is also very near. He sees you. And me. And He is not small.

If you don't know Him, get to know Him. He is always available and always listening. Start by praying to Him. Telling Him you need Him. Telling Him you've messed up and deserve the death your sin gave birth to. Telling Him you're so glad He took that death for you and that you want Him to come into your heart and make you new. You want Him to be, finally, Lord of your life, your whole life. Make you alive and able to understand for the first time. There is no condemnation in Him. Absolutely none. In fact, He's been waiting for you from a long way off for awhile now. He's been waiting for you to come home. So he can throw a garland around your neck and celebrate His child who has come home and found shelter in the arms of His great, great love. To receive you in. And cover over a multitude of things.

"If you confess with your mouth, 'Jesus is Lord,' and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved." Romans 10:9

He will meet you there. He will reveal Himself to you. He is no respector of persons. He knows no bounds and is not held by any wall. My God saves!

Thanks for taking the time to read this. And for those of you who have been supporting me, thank you from the bottom of my heart. I run for you tomorrow, too. As you have sacrificed financially to give to Amazon Medical Missions, I will sacrifice my body tomorrow to honor your pledge. And together, we will bless people we've never seen who live halfway around the world. And together, we will help carry out God's mission that "many will see and hear and put their trust in the Lord!"

"Praise the LORD, O my soul;
all my inmost being, praise his holy name.
Praise the LORD, O my soul,
and forget not all his benefits-

who forgives all your sins
and heals all your diseases,

who redeems your life from the pit
and crowns you with love and compassion,

who satisfies your desires with good things
so that your youth is renewed like the eagle's.

The LORD works righteousness
and justice for all the oppressed.

He made known his ways to Moses,
his deeds to the people of Israel:

The LORD is compassionate and gracious,
slow to anger, abounding in love.

He will not always accuse,
nor will he harbor his anger forever;

he does not treat us as our sins deserve
or repay us according to our iniquities.

For as high as the heavens are above the earth,
so great is his love for those who fear him;

as far as the east is from the west,
so far has he removed our transgressions from us.

As a father has compassion on his children,
so the LORD has compassion on those who fear him;

for he knows how we are formed,
he remembers that we are dust.

As for man, his days are like grass,
he flourishes like a flower of the field;

the wind blows over it and it is gone,
and its place remembers it no more.

But from everlasting to everlasting
the LORD's love is with those who fear him,
and his righteousness with their children's children-

with those who keep his covenant
and remember to obey his precepts.

The LORD has established his throne in heaven,
and his kingdom rules over all.

Praise the LORD, you his angels,
you mighty ones who do his bidding,
who obey his word.

Praise the LORD, all his heavenly hosts,
you his servants who do his will.

Praise the LORD, all his works
everywhere in his dominion.
Praise the LORD, O my soul."

Psalm 103

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